I had trouble waking up this morning and in addition to that, I had the weirdest dream. The dream was suppose to be a happy one and all of sudden, I saw conrad turned into some psycho monster and wanted to eat me up. Then the next thing I knew was I was driving in my car and singing the old song by Theresa Teng (whatever her name is) and when I look at my surrounding, I was in the 1970s...DANG! Then there was this unrest and many suicide bombing, etc and I was nearly murdered.
I have doubts again for my university. I really want to go to UCB but the chances of me going there = 0.0000000000000000000000000001%. Not trying to be pessimistic or what but I have to have at least an average GPA of 3.9 for every quarter. With the look of it, this quarter is a nightmare! I couldn't possibly get 3.9!!! The one thing that is impossible is Philosophy! Final for philosophy is next Thursday and I really have no idea what the exam guide is talking about. I don't even understand ethics that chapter!
But if I didn't get into UCB I would end up staying in Seattle, going to UW!!! I don't want!!! Not that UW is bad or what, in fact it is ranked 17 in the world. The problem is that if I stay in Seattle, I would be stuck doing housework such as vacuuming and laundry for my brother!!!! EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!! I don't mind doing it for myself but for others? I mean if my friends ask me to help her clean I would delightfully do so. But I hate OBLIGATIONS. My mom thinks that I HAVE TO. The hell with "HAVE TO"!!!!! Moreover, I have to drive my brother's car which I hate so much!!! He modifies it until it is hard to be driven and I have to take notes of the pitholes, etc...Not that I don't have to if he didn't modifies it. But, the car is now more VULNERABLE! ARGH!
After econ class, I went to the washroom and after washing my hands, I opened the door and it was as if I was a toilet doorgirl. People kept coming in when I opened the door and I hold it open until I had the chance to slip out.
I still have 3 philosophy essays: 2 short and 1 long. =(
ps: If you're my friend and needs my help, I would be happy to help if it is under my capabilities =)