Saturday, June 30, 2007
i was supposed to take written test at the driver licensing whatever...but turned out there were just too many people waiting and i am too lazy to wait... so yeah i decided to take it next tues... so after i left the driving licensing office i went out to alderwood and met sherly... damn! i have no mood to blog... all of a sudden my will of doing anything just anything has ceased...
how? how? how? how? dont ask me why i said how that many times...just that there's just a feeling that i dont know how to do something...
i'm not afraid of anything as long as you're by my side, i think...Thursday, June 28, 2007
argh!! leave me alone! dont call me! dont sms me! i am too disgusted already!!!
this sure teach me a lesson... NEVER TRY TO BE NICE WHEN YOU'RE ALREADY EVIL!...well, i am evil by nature..i mean i never treat anyone nicely unless i really like them or they are my friends who are dear to me... i tried to be a miss goody on monday 6/25/2007 and this is what i got....i think god hates me being a good nice girl... i swear that i am so not going to be a nice girl anymore! RAR!
i never looked at anyone like how i look at you before...Monday, June 25, 2007
the start of quarter and i am beat... i have some things that i have to go through tonight like some stats stuffs... very blah!
only you have the ability to paint my world...Sunday, June 24, 2007
i am so depressed right now, so i have decided to list everything that i like such as food and anything...
Favorite food:
- fruit salad lobster
- crabs
- steaks
- eggs
- fried chicken
- meatballs
- corn
Favorite things:
- collection of crystals
- shoes
- watches
- nintendo ds lite
Favorite drinks:
- ramune
- green tea
Favorite sports:
- golf (i have not play for ages)
- basketball
- swimming
- tennis
TREASURE:
- mami
- my friends
- nintendo ds lite + all games cartridge
- clothes
- crystals
- watch
- presents i got from everyone
- photo album
- memories
seriously, i dont know what i'm doing..so dont bother looking at this entry...
today is like the worst day of my life and i thank god for mami in my life...FYI mami is not my mum...she's just my aunt, but she is more like a mum to me than my real mum...she trusts me in every way possible unlike my REAL mum...
i don't want to say anything further cos of today's incident i argued more like quarreled with my REAL mum till my eyes swollen... yeah i cried like hell... just shut your bloody hell trap...
whatever is going to happen after today with my real mum i couldnt care anymore.. she wants to severe ties i dont care...cos i dont even feel like i'm her daughter... she wants me to go back to indo and never go back to USA..i am so gonna kill her if that's gonna happen... i dont care anymore...i am dead inside right now...i wanna kill myself just now but thank god i have my mami...
PS: mami, i love you a lot! thank you for everything until now!!
class tomorrow and i am so not ready... i have an aching neck right now... it hurts like really hurts... my money is still not back in my deposit and i plan to go to bank tomorrow if the person in the bank doesn't reply the voicemail i left him yesterday...and i think i should change my voicemail too lest the bank thought they talked to me..=X
i will declare right here and now that I HATE BANK OF AMERICA!! how can they lose a client's money...the client is ME! how can they lose my $2,300 deposit and how can they transfer out money from a deposit that is not even matured yet...HAVE THEY LOST THEIR BLOODY USELESS PEANUT-SIZED BRAIN??????
i can't wait for the day when i would look at you with my sincerest smile...Friday, June 22, 2007
i had just completed reading naruto manga till the latest one.. damn tiring as i expected... i think i have the most unproductive holiday of my life right now..i mean i have a week holiday and yet, all i had done so far were either playing ds or surfing the net...oh not to forget shop...what the hell was i thinking... ahh who cares! i wanna get some eye shut right now... i wanna get up early tmr..may be around 9.30AM...
right now all i could do is to watch and love you from afar...may be, one day, i could walk with you side by side forever.Wednesday, June 20, 2007
it may be true that if i were to transfer to dvc, i would get a higher chances of getting into ucb...but am i capable enough to stay in ucb and GRADUATE. ucb is so far away from sf itself. i will be bored to death if i stayed at that area.
i know sccc is damn crappy..but i dont know! i dont even have the confidence that i would get into UW's business sch...worse of all cases, i would just enter SU's business sch..hey wait a minute! what if they dont want this idiot girl who's blogging right now???????? damn! i hate this!
let's digress a little...
i went to bartell around 7.20pm today to buy some things...then after i purchased whatever i wanted, i walked out of the store and i saw this woman..she has this FAKE huge breast..u ask me how i know it's fake? well for starters, her breasts are so abnormal..her cup size, i assume she should be wearing cup D/ E ...but wait she wasnt wearing any...so yeah her nipples are visible to naked eyes...but her breasts are so different than normal ones... u see for normal ones...they dont appear stiff and definitely dont stay at one place when u dont wear bra... i guess it may be due to the silicon or saline or whatsoever the technology has right now.... BAH! my eyes hurt a little after seeing those!
i will lock away my feelings for you until the day i know when to express it...i cant sleep last night and what's worse is that there's a stupid fire alarm inspection this morning at 9 AM..so i was woken up by this horrible noise coming out from the alarm speaker "counting...2/33...bla bla bla bla"
it's still freaking cold in seattle...cold yes but at least not as cold as winter the other time...BRR~~~ chills~
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
i dont understand why people keep asking me to make friends...i mean i know i dont have LOTS of friends but it's just too bad that i choose who i want to be friend with...it doesnt matter if u say that ur friends are very friendly or whatsoever and want me to know them but to me, i just dont like it...i know it sounds weird and all but i'm like that..ok this entry is bullshit, but i will just post it..damn!
you're my treasure...Monday, June 18, 2007
hmm...i'm sick and yet i still have the
drive...motivation to shop...actually i did shop on saturday when my bro's out to vancouver..but the things i bought arent not enough to satisfy the greedy devil inside me...
i wish you could see how much i treasure and adore you...Friday, June 15, 2007
my stomach hurts... it feels so hot...like as if someone set it on fire...
i think i'm a very good procrastinator...i started doing my essay at around 10pm and until now i've not finished it...i'm not planning to sleep at all today...
my bro's car is now a total wreck.. the back suspension or smth like that has broke through the baggage compartment.. from what i see that car is a total mess.. this is what will happen when idiots keep on MODIFYING their cars...
because i love you more than anyone else in this world...Thursday, June 14, 2007
happy birthday yuki! semoga lu stay funky, nice, and always be you =)
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
i know when i like someone, i dont have to be with them. but how am i going to be happy to see the person that i like to be with someone else? people said that if the one that you like is happy, you would be happy. but the question is HOW?
everyday, all i can think about is you. i have never loved anyone this much before.Tuesday, June 12, 2007
i read vira's blog like 30 mins ago and... she seems to have a hard time in shanghai with her eldest sis around. well, i dont know her sis at all but she scolded me over the phone once when i called fins...she's damn scary!
i dont understand why chinese parents can't accept any other kind of sexual preferences other than STRAIGHT. i dont know what crap i'm getting into anyway..
yesterday night, i had a nightmare and a terrible one. i dreamt of myself, weighing as a 89KG girl. beats me about the weird number like 89...damn dream! i think i dream of it because i ate 2 krispy kreme donut when i'm "memorizing" my english and at the same time watching vids at crunchyroll.
i will always love you no matter what and even when you like another person. when you like another person, i will lock my feelings for you deep in my heart.
omg! i think i'm going to have irregular sleeping time from now onwards. i want my previous sleeping time..yah i know i'm like a P6 kid but i need my sleep..damn school! (i have no one to blame except school and myself..but i don't want to blame myself)
meeting you has been the best thing that ever happened to me. you're a sun to my life =) i can't help but to admire you every time i see you.Sunday, June 10, 2007
if my mom ever finds out about my biggest secret,
most probably DEFINITELY she would disown me right away... i think i would just beat the crap out of myself before this secret ever goes out, but is it possible to hold the devil in me? hihihi
will my dreams come true? i think my dream of being a chemist might change..i guess my passion for chemistry isnt that great after all. what can u say? i am just an ordinary girl who tries hard to be acknowledged by those she loves...HAHA! i think i'm really losing my sanity...
damn..i really have mental block...all i can think of since yesterday night was all about the same thing. ARGH!!!! is it really hard to express my feelings? i wish i could express it but i dont think i can ever do that!!! cannot!! =( but i'm grateful...because after meeting that, my life has become colorful once again. well, not that it was bleak before meeting that..but it's better now.. one day, i really want to tell that that i'm glad that i have met that...=)
