Sunday, April 29, 2007
I am so troubled again~ and I don't intend to do anything about it... I know irresponsible but I just don't know what to do about all these problems that kept coming on to me..
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I am very lost right now cos I really can't decide whether I should just give up my thought of going to UCB... I mean I know my ability and I know I can't get in. But I wouldn't know unless I try right? But I am too lazy to study so much.. Firstly, if I got rejected by UCB, what's the use of taking so many redundant classes that only match UCB's requirement? I think it is rather silly... So right now, I am having second thoughts.. Oh god help me decide!!!! Open up a path for me please!!!!!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I think I am very good in causing people to get annoyed... I am so annoying... HA-HA!
I am losing touch of my sarcastic nature...I want someone to practice on!!! I can't stand the itch in my throat!!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
After chatting with Miyuki, I realize I never appreciate what I have thus far.. I just live the life my mom wants me to... I never fought for what I want.. I forgot the feeling of fighting for my right.. Actually, I never really fight for my right.. I just do whatever my mom tells me to do..
From today onwards, I will appreciate everything around me and be happy for whatever comes up to me.. I am going to be a stronger person..!!
OMG! I am so screwed up right now... I am falling over the edge and something is not going the right way... I am so afraid to see what will happen next... I am so afraid that I might not be able to let go... I am so afraid of everything in this world... CAN SOMEONE JUST KILL ME????
Monday, April 23, 2007
Aaaaahhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~ Nothing is falling at the right place....nothing is going the way I want it to go....
Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am tired of living~~~~~~~~~~~
I want to quit college~~~~~
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Nothing is going in the right track...
Saturday, April 21, 2007
I am really really sorry!!!
-_-'' I am really intrigued by a special someone..But I am too afraid to know that person...I am scared that the same thing will happen again...
Friday, April 20, 2007
YES it is my birthday and I AM OLD.
Even though I am this old, I am still so inconsiderate of my friends feelings. I am insensible and all...=( I am so sorry...
SHER! sorry banget gua bener2 sorry!!! I will make it up to u ok? Tell me anything you want...scold me all you want but don't stay mad ok? For the sake of our almost a decade friendship? PLEASE!!!
I am officially 18 and ALSO old.
I can feel my joints are hurting
I can see my beautiful black hair turning into white
OMG!!!! I WANT TO TURN BACK THE TIME!!!!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
I GOT MY NINTENDO DS LITE!!!! I GOT IT!!! I GOT IT!!!! MY BROTHER BOUGHT IT FOR ME AS A BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!! YAY!!! I CAN'T SAY HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW!!!
Something is really bumping me out of my nerves. I don't even know what is that something; it's just that I have this weird feeling the thing from the past is going to repeat again -- history is repeating itself.
I just hope this "something" will just pass me with no problem. Or else, I will be very, very and extremely.....erm...... sad? worried? I don't know. I can't describe my feelings.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Day by day my life seems to be getting rather boring. I do the same thing every single day. I sleep at almost the exact time. I need something more exciting in my life. Like being thrown in a foreign country all by myself? But I will get lost rather easily. Moreover I won't have the strength to go on all day by myself.
Sometimes I see myself as a coward. I mean I am not brave enough to face the world.
ARRGGGHH!!!! DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM THINKING RIGHT NOW!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
My flu has gotten better but sore throat just got worse. And oh, my stomach still have the burning sensation.
This is like the worse month ever: 1) Feeling old, 2) sick, 3) tests and 4) tons of homeworks. I really need a long weekend not just a 2-day weekend. Why and how come there's only 2-day weekend? Why can't the past people make it 3.5 days? or better still round it up to 4 days of weekend? Stupid greek people/ whoever invented days!
Friday, April 13, 2007
OMG! I am having second thought. Oh dear, what the hell is wrong with me and what am I gonna do?? Should I pretend to be sick? But I am sick -- But not that sick until I can't go out. I need a really good excuse. Well, I shall see how things go first. =X
I don't know why but I am never turned on when I look at Indo guys. I mean I don't feel or see any attraction but whenever I see guys from Europe, I will be like WOO-HOO! I'm serious! There is this German guy in my english class and I think he's nice. I don't want to elaborate further.
My stomach is queasy and very blech from yesterday. It feels like it's bloated and yet nothing comes out of my mouth. OMG! I feel like I'm dying.
I've been thinking yesterday; I thought of what I really, really want to do with my life. Currently, I'm majoring in business (accounting/finance) and I thought of doing double major. But, I realize that, I'm not cut out to be in a corporate world. Why? Because, I get bored easily even though I don't mind doing the monotonous thing every day. I mean, would I really last doing office work day after day? I will be doing nothing but business transactions. However, it is impossible for me to take change to another major because I don't know what to take! Oh screw it! Should I be a doctor? But with my sarcastic nature, I don't think I will be a good doctor -- moreover, I always freak out when someone has some illness, etc. Should I be an architect? Well, for starters, I like houses -- especially, NICE houses. But I can't draw well. I can only copy other people's work. I just don't have that artistic flair. I pass all my secondary school art exam by copying some painters' work. One of them is Crying Woman by Pablo Picasso.
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Yeah, Yeah! I know it is not right to copy other people's work. Who cares? I got an A1 for it!! Anyway, I think my drawing days are so over. I hate to pick up my old painting brushes and start mixing colors and paint.
So, for now, I would just stick with business first. May be, when I can't find what I really want to do, I will just reproduce and let my children to make my dreams come true. =)
***I'm thinking so far ahead of time!***
Thursday, April 12, 2007
I have stupid math test tomorrow and ohh ohh ohh!! I don't care! I am down with sore throat and flu..I can't breathe properly and I have to breathe with my mouth which makes my mouth dry and really uncomfortable! Moreover, whenever I was walking out of campus and I happen to cough, people who are smoking think that I cough because of the smell of the cigarettes. Damn. Why must must I have this stupid sore throat when bro bought krispy kreme? I am like drooling for one ever since the start of the quarter and now I can't eat. My bro is sure gonna finish those doughnuts. T_T!!!
I really hope this quarter would just end quickly. I can't stand being in astronomy class!!! I fall asleep every time the instructor starts talking. Not that I hate him but he keeps on talking non-stop. I know it is a lecture so the instructor will not stop talking but at least try and make the class interesting man! In addition to that, he tells jokes that are so lame and no one even laughs.
I bought some magazines from QFC yesterday and I forgot to bring it back home. I realized it when I was walking home from nordstorm bus stop. I think I am getting more senile..Is it because of the fact that I'm turning 18? I am feeling so old right now. I know being 18 means a lot like I can drive in USA, etc but it's just...I AM OLD! I think I am being too hysterical, aren't I?
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I have been eating irregularly these few days and I don't know why. May be I will go over to the supermarket to buy some vegetables and banana. It will be healthier.
Nothing much happened today and there's just not much to blog about these few days. Recently, I always take a nap before doing my homeworks which never happened before! Am I turning old? Am I getting weak by day?
I hate Seattle! It's always cold! Spring and yet, still cold like Winter! =( I want to go to a place that is warmer than Seattle but cooler than any countries near the Equator. Is there any place like that?
Monday, April 9, 2007
Monday blue!! Actually not that blue =) I saw a really really cute + handsome guy in my eng class today!!! I am telling you he is darn gorgeous..Anyway, anyone knows where Seattle City War Memorial is? I've got field trip this Friday and students are supposed to go there alone by
BUS. Come on, I take bus only to get to campus and home, nowhere else. I am so screwed. Yeah, you might tell me to skip it, but I have to write a paper on it! So if I don't go on Friday, I have to go another day MYSELF again. At least, If I go on Friday, lecturer is there to explain stuffs and I won't be clueless on what I should and should not pay attention to. This is so confusing =X
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Weekend is over in 1 hr 9 mins. This sucks! I am looking way more like a long holiday..Yeah yeah I know, I will be complaining when I have nothing to do like what I did during spring break...
My english homework is so poorly done and I don't really care..'cos it is like so hard and I don't like it!!! Anyway, I decided to do a double major in university later on. Well, because I can't decide between accounting and finance...I need accounting but I also want to learn finance and I wouldn't even let myself have the thought of taking finance as minor...why? because it is not major enough..yeah I'm weird..That's me alright!
I do realize that I kept on saying that I would post the photos I took at SF during spring break and I never did until now... Come on I am just tired every time i got back from campus and not to mention the amount of math and accounting homeworks I got! Sometimes, I would INNOCENTLY fell asleep while doing my homeworks!
Anyway, I would like to thank God because there will be no Astronomy lecture tomorrow! WOO-HOO!!! I hate that lecture cos I always have the urge of closing my eyes whenever the lecturer starts RAMBLING about the SUN, MOON, STARS, ASTEROIDS, etc~
I was half way doing my english homework and I decided to do a test at www.humanforsale.com to find out how much I'm worth. Guess what? I am so darn C-H-E-A-P!
$2,158,260!!!!! Tell me why am I that cheap? Well, I always thought that I am so way more expansive than that. After all, I am not CHEAP.
Anyway, I kind of have this thing going on for Korean and Japanese guys. What I mean is that, I always like cute jap and korean guys. In my accounting class, I saw this REALLY cute jap guy and he has this gorgeous baby face!!! For korean, it is more like joo ji hoon, jang hyuk that kind...I think I really have to snap back to reality and realize that I can never get any korean/ jap guys..In the end, I will just marry some boring Indonesian Chinese guy..I am not saying indo guys are bad..it's just that I want something more exotic..like having a british boyfriend? I think I will just dream of it..My imaginary british boyfriend..HA-HA!
In 3 weeks time, I will take my written test for my driving license and after passing that stupid test, I will scheduled an appointment 2 weeks after that to take my practical test..AFTER that, I CAN OFFICIALLY DRIVE IN USA!!! NO MORE STUPID BUS (I think), NO MORE STAYING AT HOME (I will go out to places like premium outlet, southcenter, northgate, etc). =D I am a very happy girl in 5 weeks time..ho-ho-ho~
Friday, April 6, 2007
I had a very tough day today! Math test was BLAH! I hate it! I calculated those easy ones!!! I lost 2 points there! VERY B-L-A-H!
I don't understand why math assignments must be given in lots of questions. In sg, the most was like...10 questions? Here is more like triple of it!
I am so confused in what I really want to do in my life. I repeat all I done the previous day with almost no difference. My life is a complete BLAH!
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Apparently, I do not have any spare time to blog much. I have so much to rant about but I have wayyyy to many assignments.
I will update more tomorrow =)
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Today was a very unexpected day for me. I met this girl and her name is Miyuki Kusuma. She is a very nice girl! I am so glad that I met her. I hung out with her at the cafeteria until 4.30PM. She is so cool! Oh oh! She is the younger sister of Yumiko and a distant cousin of Dennis.
I have lots of homeworks today so BYE!
Monday, April 2, 2007
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Extroversion:
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Damn I was so bored from reading this reading assignment I got from my english class! This lecturer is like saying more of world peace, etc. I don't give a damn shit about world peace or whatever peace you people got out there! I just want to have MONEY!!! Since I was so bored, I went to fin's blog and found those tests...So I just did it out of boredom~
Damn English lecturer! and OMG! Another thing is that my astronomy lecturer pronounced "day" correctly but when he said the day, e.g tuesday, it would become tues-di!!!!
My accounting lecturer can't stop talking and he makes this stupid jokes that aren't funny at all!!!!
ARGH!!! and I thought I would have a nice quarter this time round. But I have no complaint for my Math lecturer he's a very nice guy!
Sunday, April 1, 2007
I have wasted a week of HOLIDAY!!! Tomorrow is the start of new quarter!!! DAMN!!!
I will upload my second day in SF perhaps tomorrow.
Does anyone of you know a nice university? It doesn't have to be top but I just want the building to be nice =x. However, those universities I chose, are like out of Seattle except for University of Washington. I actually have thought of a few of them if it seems to be possible to be called "FEW".
1) Haas School of Business (UC Berkeley)
2) University of Washington
3) Wharton School of the University of Pennsylvania
4) New York University (Still thinking of this one cos it is cold in NYC during winter)
5) Robert Emmett McDonough School of Business (Georgetown University) ---> This one requires an interview with the Alumni, so I kinda lazy for the interview.
6) University of San Francisco
I think I thought of too many universities, haven't I? Anyway, if you know any nice universities please, please tell me!
I am so easily fooled man! I have been fooled for like twice? But it was like yesterday according to USA's time! So, technically, I am fooled for no reason! BAH! People got me excited and worried for no reason, DAMN!
I was so bored just now that I went to sanrio's web page and look at the horoscope. I think it is quite true and some are untrue.
Some are true because they say Aries' favorite color is
RED and woo-hoo I love red. Second of all, it says that during bad days, I would be all selfish and bossy...IT IS TRUE! Next, during good days, I would be all energetic and bold..I couldn't say much about the energetic part but the bold part is so untrue. But for the favorite things for Arians are new clothes, fast red cars and prizes. WOW SO TRUE! I always wanted a red Ferrari!!! or anything that is nice and FAST but it must be red. I like shopping a lot and I always have to buy new clothing every time I go shopping.
Although my characters are more to the Aries side, I do have Taurus characters. After all this is the life as a CUSP baby!
If you guys don't believe in horoscope or zodiac, may be you shouldn't be reading this post and I think you should just keep you opinion to yourself 'cos you know what? I BELIEVE IN HOROSCOPE & ZODIAC!
If you guys are bored like I do, you can visit sanrio or if you don't want the kiddy one, you can go to here
Yeah, Yeah! I know it is not right to copy other people's work. Who cares? I got an A1 for it!! Anyway, I think my drawing days are so over. I hate to pick up my old painting brushes and start mixing colors and paint.