today is like the worst day of my life and i thank god for mami in my life...FYI mami is not my mum...she's just my aunt, but she is more like a mum to me than my real mum...she trusts me in every way possible unlike my REAL mum...

i don't want to say anything further cos of today's incident i argued more like quarreled with my REAL mum till my eyes swollen... yeah i cried like hell... just shut your bloody hell trap...

whatever is going to happen after today with my real mum i couldnt care anymore.. she wants to severe ties i dont care...cos i dont even feel like i'm her daughter... she wants me to go back to indo and never go back to USA..i am so gonna kill her if that's gonna happen... i dont care anymore...i am dead inside right now...i wanna kill myself just now but thank god i have my mami...

PS: mami, i love you a lot! thank you for everything until now!!